19 days

Right I suck at updating. Deal with it xD

Things are been kinda crazy lately so that is my excuse.
I'm back at school, still feeling off and only 3 days before school starts.
In short words, me and my mum are having a fight, a MAJOR one. Or well maybe not a fight, I just don't talk to her. I have a good reason, she's starting to turn again. Its what she does when she finds someone better then me. It happened with her ex (that almost broke me all together. I hate him) and now I thought it would be okay because her new b-friend is actually pretty cool. But no. Is it wrong to hate your mother?

My cousin is looking for apartment in Stockholm. I know he was maybe getting a job there but now its getting real. My brother is moving away...my safe-line is moving to the other side of the country. I don't know if I can deal with that...

I wrote this quite a long time ago...

19 days

19 days I’ve survived without you.

No more pain or suffering.

Leaving you was the best I could do.

But I can’t help but ask myself.

Are you missing me too?

The beat inside is driving me mad.

Like some kind of electric shots.

Pictures of old American movies flashes by.

Justice making innocent people pay.

I’m shaking through the night.

Just need you now but I can’t reach out.

You’re right here, within my sight.

You’re here for me, only for me.

Like a friend who never truly leaves.

But you’re destroying me, can’t you see?

A friend of yours visited today.

She said you sent her.

That you told her to stay.

Maybe she’ll never leave me now.

And just like with you I might obey.

I’m shaking through the night.

Just need you now but I can’t reach out.

You’re right here, within my sight.

You’re here for me, only for me.

Like a friend who never truly leaves.

I need you know, don’t you see?

19 days without you.

19 days.

Is that all I can do?

19 days.

Are you missing me t00?